The Present & The Future

Apodiform has unfortunately been put on the back-burner for some time now. If you didn't already know, the last few months I've had a son, built a new company and basically changed my lifestyle completely. I love the direction my life is headed and couldn't feel anymore blessed to be surrounded by so much love and be working with such incredibly gifted and talented friends. I simply haven't had the time or the drive to focus on my own music.

There will be days where I hop on the piano in the middle of my work day or after changing a diaper to find I've got some new ideas bouncing around in this cluttered head of mine. There will come a day when I will simply have to get some of these ideas out of my head to make room for everything else. I can't say when that new material will be completed and produced but I can say that it will be sometime in the near future.

So, thanks for your continued love and support for my family, my band and the musicians that I work with...

Apodiform will be back soon...

Non Omnia Moriar

I've been asked about the lyrics to Non Omnia Moriar so I figured I'd just post and explain.

This song consists of the last dying words of 8 individuals. Non Omnia Moriar means "Not all of me will die" in Latin, in case you didn't know.

So...here ya go...you can get the song free here as well >> www.apodiform.bandcamp.com

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Non Omnia Moriar
Lyrics:

“Turn up the lights, I don’t want to go home in the dark” - O. Henry/William Sidney Porter
“Oh my poor soul, what is to become of you...where will you go?” -Cardinal Mazarin

take all your preconceptions... and leave them alone
there’s something waiting for us
something waiting for us
out there

“The fog is rising...” - Emily Dickinson
“I have failed...” - Jean Paul Sartre
“What a fool I’ve been” - Winston Churchill
“Now comes the mystery” - Henry Ward Beecher
“It’s my turn to take a leap in the darkness” - Thomas Hobbes

take all your preconceptions... and leave them alone
there’s something waiting for us
something waiting for us
out there

can you see the light getting closer
can you feel the love taking over
finally we’ve come to discover
that we’re long overdue for surrender

finally as for my spirit
Father into thy hands I commend it - Jesus Christ
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Patience is not only a virtue, but a necessity for a happy existence.

My friend Taylor Muse has been mad at me for the last 3-4 months for starting a blog...then not blogging...ever. So, in an effort to make my friend love me again...I'm diving back in. I hope you're smiling Taylor...and you too Leah...and you too Harper.

On the eve of what will be the week I become a Dad, I'm reminded why my Dad stressed to me all those years that patience is truly a virtue. Hollie and I were told a due date of May 15th for Micah...and on May 20th...we were told that's probably wrong. So, here we sit as happy as can be knowing that our son is perfectly fine and that we're right on time with everything. It was a long stressful 5 days though of simply not knowing why things are taking so long to happen.
We know that sometimes babies can be two weeks late or more but that simply did not matter to us. My family is known for being punctual and even Hollie kept saying "I have a feeling the 15th is the day!" How was I supposed to react when the 16th rolled around? I expected a son on the 15th...not the 16th...or the 17th...or the 23rd.
Even though all has been perfectly fine with Hollie and Micah...I was just so ready I just couldn't stop thinking about it every second of every day and it started wearing me down. It's like being so excited and eager for Christmas morning...but not knowing what day Christmas is...

Hollie and I are still excited but extremely calm and relaxed about everything now. We're still holding out for a natural birth and It'll happen when it's supposed to happen...I guess on Micah's terms. We'll be serving the eviction notice soon though. He's waaaay too comfortable in there. I'm also tired of gaining this sympathy weight and Hollie can't wait to lay on her stomach again so come on Micah...let's do this thing!

We are so blessed to be surrounded by so many loving and caring friends who are just as excited as we are...and some I think even more. You know who you are. We love you very much and we're so thankful that you are a part of this with us.

A picture says a 1000 words...

When I write music I usually try to find art work that goes along with the song, or I'll take a picture of something that I feel represents what the music is trying to say. The first song that we released this year called 'No Compromise' has this photo as it's artwork. I took it while I was working on the song and really didn't know why I married the two until I recently thought about it.

When I started work on the new apodiform music and invited 3 good friends to join me, I truly felt like it was a new beginning for me musically. This whole process so far has been a renewal. Music feels completely new and fresh, like I'm playing instruments for the first time. Something inside me has been rejuvenated and the drive to learn more ways to perfect my craft has come alive.

The piano in that picture is the first instrument I ever wrote a song on. I grew up writing and learning music on it and it now sits in the music room of my house. I don't remember a second of my life without it. Countless hours have gone by with my hands on those keys...at every age of my life...since I was 5 or so.
I guess I subconsciously used that picture for the first piece we created this year because it's as if I've written a first song again. It's like I'm getting a chance to start over...and it feels good.

Another thought that feels good...is that my sons little hands will play that piano one day...that just put a giant smile on my face.